My first reaction to my diagnosis was relief it was me and not my boys. I said from the start there isn't a parent of a kid wirh cancer who wouldn't gladly take their kids place and that if someone in my immediate family has to have this I'm so glad it's me.
That is very true. It was a helpless feeling that I couldn't help my son, or prevent him from getting cancer. I would've gladly taken on that deadly disease so he didn't have to. On the other hand, having watched my son fight cancer, I never realized how much we can learn from our children. He was able to just focus on living, playing video games, watching movies, playing Uno etc, in between chemo treatments and constant vomiting. The way he handled the pain, and worked through physical therapy while in tears, was the bravest thing I've ever observed. I am actually recovering from surgery right now, and reflecting on how my son handled his surgeries, helped me get through. Anyway, I am thankful for you sharing your honest raw experiences with us.
I am sad to hear about your cancer diagnosis, but am glad it has turned out to be a blessing for you and your Family. I lost my Step Dad to cancer during the same summer our 6 year old son was diagnosed with stage 4 hepatoblastoma that spread to his lungs. Thankfully he's in remission now, but it definitely took a toll on my marriage. We are still working through some of the pain of how we coped differently and how we hurt each other even after the treatment had completed. It has been a journey for sure. I applaud your courage of sharing your experiences with us, they are truly moving. May you have many more happy moments with your boys, and may you find the balance you deserve.
My first reaction to my diagnosis was relief it was me and not my boys. I said from the start there isn't a parent of a kid wirh cancer who wouldn't gladly take their kids place and that if someone in my immediate family has to have this I'm so glad it's me.
That is very true. It was a helpless feeling that I couldn't help my son, or prevent him from getting cancer. I would've gladly taken on that deadly disease so he didn't have to. On the other hand, having watched my son fight cancer, I never realized how much we can learn from our children. He was able to just focus on living, playing video games, watching movies, playing Uno etc, in between chemo treatments and constant vomiting. The way he handled the pain, and worked through physical therapy while in tears, was the bravest thing I've ever observed. I am actually recovering from surgery right now, and reflecting on how my son handled his surgeries, helped me get through. Anyway, I am thankful for you sharing your honest raw experiences with us.
I am sad to hear about your cancer diagnosis, but am glad it has turned out to be a blessing for you and your Family. I lost my Step Dad to cancer during the same summer our 6 year old son was diagnosed with stage 4 hepatoblastoma that spread to his lungs. Thankfully he's in remission now, but it definitely took a toll on my marriage. We are still working through some of the pain of how we coped differently and how we hurt each other even after the treatment had completed. It has been a journey for sure. I applaud your courage of sharing your experiences with us, they are truly moving. May you have many more happy moments with your boys, and may you find the balance you deserve.